My life, my responsibility.

Kevin:

It shall be known, on 16th of November 2008, Kevin Low had his white funeral. Read about it in the devotional: My Utmost for His Highest. My white funeral. The day I finally stop playing with my soul and just bury myself. My value system, my soul, my flesh, my thought patterns, all buried and crucified. I made an agreement with God, I told him, I just wanted to give up myself. I wanted to stop living my old life. I wasn't excited. I knew I would have to give up so many things to live out this agreement. Giving up gaming, procrastination, sleep, free time, money, food. But, I knew, the life I was about to embark would be much bigger than my wildest dreams.

Ephesians 3:20 (New King James Version)

20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,

I want to give my old life up. I want to really crucify myself, take up my cross.

It was mostly sparked by a conversation I had with God during the last zone F service.

During altar call, I asked God, "What responsibilities do I need to take up God?"
And God just started listing responsibility after responsibility, name after name, person after person.
I just broke down, God was answering me so clearly. I told God, "How can I do it? I'm so young."
God just said, " Do not hate your youth."
I asked, " I need help God."
God answered, " Stick close to Me and I'll help you."
"Help me, help me God."
"Have I ever denied you help?"
"What if I screw up God?"
"Even if you screw up, I'll still love you"

So powerful.

God has just been speaking to me so much. During CG meeting when I asked Him what my future in church was, He replied three simple words, " In the background."

Well, I think that's enough for today
Kevin